"I have an iron will, and all of my will has always been to conquer some horrible feeling of inadequacy. . . I push past one spell of it and discover myself as a special human being, and then I get to another stage and think I'm mediocre and uninteresting. . . . Again and again. My drive in life is from this horrible fear of being mediocre. And that's always pushing me, pushing me. Because even though I've become Somebody, I still have to prove I'm Somebody. My struggle has never ended and it probably never will."
— Madonna, Interview for Vanity Fair (1991)
Five years ago, in my last semester at Parsons, I wrote a blog entry (click here) of my journey in my academics sided by this nagging, insatiable hunger to keep going in my specific industry, with every gift and skill set afforded me, until I found myself satisfied professionally. In coming across this quote by Madonna, not for the first time but currently very timely, I'm reminded again of the life I could've drowned in had Christ not saved me from the black hole of my potential ego. I respect what she said because it comes from a heart of extreme self-awareness, something I believe not everyone has. And yet, as clearly as I can relate, I'm glad those words are not my own, and never will be. Lord, I thank you for every step, every opportunity, every experience you've ever supplied me with and will continue to provide. Be glorified in my joy, my reach, my deeper satisfaction in You.
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